At some point in time, you have to look at what you are doing and say: what\Zs working here and what is not? What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Life, the Universe, Everything. Yeah, I’m at that kind of point. Money hassles, extreme work boredom, diminishing self-confidence and the passing of time. A desire for responsibility and a lack of experience with it, an unfamiliarity with large parts of what many people consider to be the \Zreal world\Z, an increasingly unreliable bullshit detector.

At this point, I\Zm feeling like something drastic is in order. A radical job change is one answer. Although I\Zm still set on working in counseling in the future, I think that there might be some previously unexplored side roads and byways that might be fruitful on my journey there. I think it might be a good time to really challenge myself. I don\Zt have much to lose.

And this blog, this is another issue; what\Zs it going to be about? I\Zd kinda like it to be a photo blog, but I\Zm not a photographer. Id like to write in it the way I write in my diary, but that\Zs not really appropriate, a simple conflict between public and private. Doh! All the blogs I usually read have some great content ideas, but don\Zt want to be a composite of other people\Zs good ideas ... tho I may have to ask Mr. Antipixel if I can steal his \ZKing of The World\Z idea; I have my own domain goddamnit, I can issue edicts if I want!

You know what, now that I’m thinking about it, I’m just going to do whatever I want whenever I like. Im going to have a period of a lack of consistency and expectations. This could be horribly educational.

• Kristen said on 04/10/05 at 09:30 AM.....

  Oh, I think I know that wheel-spinning, head-spinning feeling you’re having. Rotten, it is.

  
  Doing whatever you want whenever you want is a good way to find a path through it. Just keep on going and you’ll find a way out of it.

• T said on 04/10/05 at 12:43 PM.....

  You go girl.. One of my fave quotes that has carried me through many many self evaluations and re-inventions… 

  “This above all - to thyne own self be true,

  
  And it must follow, as night follows days,

  
  Thou canst not then be false to any man. “

  
  William Shakespeare (1564-1616)

  
  English playwright and poet

   

• Martine said on 04/10/09 at 01:55 PM.....

  yeah, ms T said it good: you go girl. wanna have brunch tomorrow? we can discuss the world and selves over banana and cream french bread….

  i saw a great quote on vudeja

  
  I set out to change the world but I got distracted by something sparkly

  
  beautiful.

   

• jo said on 04/10/11 at 01:35 AM.....

  thanks you guys, with friends like you who needs counselling!

• Serials said on 04/12/16 at 01:56 AM.....

  Cool site…